Open airways
I finish my steroids tomorrow and I hope they have a long lasting affect. I haven’t been able to cough or breathe this well for over a year. When I describe my cough, I mean I can feel I can get air deep in the airways, pass the mucus blockage and then force the air back out moving the mucus.
I have cleared a lot out and had one or two hard plugs show up. I know I really have cleared something out when I hear this sharp crack as I cough out mucus, like releasing a plaster mold from its caste. Since the purpose of the steroids was to open the airways a lot to clear out plug build up, I was inspired to help my lungs out too. I can’t stand idling taking drugs, I have to be proactive in making things work too. Exercise is what I know how to do, not only to help strengthen my lungs, but also force air in there. This past week, exercise was quite enjoyable. Yoga was great without the tenseness of my breath. I even moved further into the pigeon position to sleeping pigeon on the left hand side. Even my downward dog seemed to be different in a good way.I lifted weights 3 times and walked on the treadmill 3 times. I would rather be outside walking but there is something to a consistent pace that helps focus my breathing. Now the task of staying in motion everyday this week! I have a follow up CF appointment next Monday, so I should be able to keep up the exercise.
I must confess even though I’m getting more oxygen to my brain, this past week had its depressing times. I’ve been having some really morbid thoughts and just self attaching lately, so I’ve avoided writing on here. I’m still in the processing phase and want to work out some of these big thoughts before I ‘publish’. Socially, I was on top of it this week. I had lunch with 3 different friends, went to bible study, a The Bachelor viewing ( I really dislike the show, but I wanted to get out of the house) and talked with my friend out of town several times on the phone. Then it came to this weekend and I basically spent it all alone. Partly because I knew certain people were busy and was scared of calling others…I was also of the opinion, someone could call me too! I went to church Saturday night and thankfully a group of us decided to get dinner after. It was a short dinner, but I did catch up with one woman. Once again all I heard is how everyone is so busy. I just sat there wondering, how and why? How are you doing all these things if you complain about how busy they make you? My opinion; life is about relationships, spend time with others, if you don’t have relationships, what is the point of living? That’s what I discovered, I survived the weekend by myself, but where did that get me, no one knew about it and I didn’t know about anyone else. Lack of relationship is so depressing.
Today though, was a perfect me-time day (even though I’m tired of me-only time right now). For Christmas I asked for money to get some massages. I had a 60 minute full body one. I slept in until 11, went for a walk and then drove with the top down to Laguna Canyon. I love the ocean and sun. The masseuse was really good with the shoulders, they are so tight! I felt very relaxed and energized to embrace another week. Then, I drove back up PCH, what a wonderful Creator I have, the sun, the clouds and the water, so beautiful. I drove a little out of my way to enjoy more of an ocean view and the wind in my hair. The rest of the afternoon I read one of my ‘writing’ books and had dinner with my parents. So all in all things were good, I just wish I had people to share in the good times.
I have cleared a lot out and had one or two hard plugs show up. I know I really have cleared something out when I hear this sharp crack as I cough out mucus, like releasing a plaster mold from its caste. Since the purpose of the steroids was to open the airways a lot to clear out plug build up, I was inspired to help my lungs out too. I can’t stand idling taking drugs, I have to be proactive in making things work too. Exercise is what I know how to do, not only to help strengthen my lungs, but also force air in there. This past week, exercise was quite enjoyable. Yoga was great without the tenseness of my breath. I even moved further into the pigeon position to sleeping pigeon on the left hand side. Even my downward dog seemed to be different in a good way.I lifted weights 3 times and walked on the treadmill 3 times. I would rather be outside walking but there is something to a consistent pace that helps focus my breathing. Now the task of staying in motion everyday this week! I have a follow up CF appointment next Monday, so I should be able to keep up the exercise.
I must confess even though I’m getting more oxygen to my brain, this past week had its depressing times. I’ve been having some really morbid thoughts and just self attaching lately, so I’ve avoided writing on here. I’m still in the processing phase and want to work out some of these big thoughts before I ‘publish’. Socially, I was on top of it this week. I had lunch with 3 different friends, went to bible study, a The Bachelor viewing ( I really dislike the show, but I wanted to get out of the house) and talked with my friend out of town several times on the phone. Then it came to this weekend and I basically spent it all alone. Partly because I knew certain people were busy and was scared of calling others…I was also of the opinion, someone could call me too! I went to church Saturday night and thankfully a group of us decided to get dinner after. It was a short dinner, but I did catch up with one woman. Once again all I heard is how everyone is so busy. I just sat there wondering, how and why? How are you doing all these things if you complain about how busy they make you? My opinion; life is about relationships, spend time with others, if you don’t have relationships, what is the point of living? That’s what I discovered, I survived the weekend by myself, but where did that get me, no one knew about it and I didn’t know about anyone else. Lack of relationship is so depressing.
Today though, was a perfect me-time day (even though I’m tired of me-only time right now). For Christmas I asked for money to get some massages. I had a 60 minute full body one. I slept in until 11, went for a walk and then drove with the top down to Laguna Canyon. I love the ocean and sun. The masseuse was really good with the shoulders, they are so tight! I felt very relaxed and energized to embrace another week. Then, I drove back up PCH, what a wonderful Creator I have, the sun, the clouds and the water, so beautiful. I drove a little out of my way to enjoy more of an ocean view and the wind in my hair. The rest of the afternoon I read one of my ‘writing’ books and had dinner with my parents. So all in all things were good, I just wish I had people to share in the good times.