Sunset 14 --The Artist Way -- Angry
There was no sunset because there was no sun. It was a cloudy, gray day, what the weather should be like in December.
Julia Cameron the author of "The Artist's Way", an artist's guide book to recovery and unblocking your creativity, that my counselor recommended is a gift to my soul! I am in week seven out of twelve and have gotten rid of a lot of muck that has been keeping me down. I am not really suppose to discuss the process and the exercises, but this recent revelation has me singing, dancing and looking in the mirror with a huge goofy grin on my face. In a recent personal journal writing response from the book, I came up with this description and I would like to share it: ( I had to just write, so this is unedited)
CF is like the awful spoiled baby of my family, that sucks life and energy away from everyone else.CF has manipulated my family's time, money and conscious. It has evoked fears, worry and a loss of worth demanding that is all that we can do. CF is this thing, this monster, that if not carefully ignored it will rear its ugly head. CF is my creative blocker.CF and me (the creative artist) can not exist together. CF and my creativity (my lifeline) have a parasitic relationship. Feeding off my ideas, dreams and happiness, CF for the past couple of years has made me feel ashamed of what I wanted to be. The symbiosis needs to change to a mutalist (I had to refresh my terms) arrangement. By having CF take our attention away from everyone else, we thought we were doing the right thing, because CF needed the attention, that it was nice and polite to bow down to the demands of CF. CF wanted us to accept its reality, when in truth, with a chronic disease, you do accept the reality, but its just like death, it is envitable, and then you choose life. When you choose to do something it means so much more and it works so much more for you I am done with CF making me apologize for what I want. I am done apologize for CF's bad behavior, if CF can go do what it wants to do, while I go do what I want to do! CF needs to learn how to share, actualy CF needs to learn to stop interferring in my life and staying out of my room. That's right CF, I'm done babysitting you, I have blogs, speeches, books to write! I am the creative one in the family, I am going to demand the attention I need for my ceative artist!
I love how as an only child, I am describing this as a sibling relationship...
Julia Cameron the author of "The Artist's Way", an artist's guide book to recovery and unblocking your creativity, that my counselor recommended is a gift to my soul! I am in week seven out of twelve and have gotten rid of a lot of muck that has been keeping me down. I am not really suppose to discuss the process and the exercises, but this recent revelation has me singing, dancing and looking in the mirror with a huge goofy grin on my face. In a recent personal journal writing response from the book, I came up with this description and I would like to share it: ( I had to just write, so this is unedited)
CF is like the awful spoiled baby of my family, that sucks life and energy away from everyone else.CF has manipulated my family's time, money and conscious. It has evoked fears, worry and a loss of worth demanding that is all that we can do. CF is this thing, this monster, that if not carefully ignored it will rear its ugly head. CF is my creative blocker.CF and me (the creative artist) can not exist together. CF and my creativity (my lifeline) have a parasitic relationship. Feeding off my ideas, dreams and happiness, CF for the past couple of years has made me feel ashamed of what I wanted to be. The symbiosis needs to change to a mutalist (I had to refresh my terms) arrangement. By having CF take our attention away from everyone else, we thought we were doing the right thing, because CF needed the attention, that it was nice and polite to bow down to the demands of CF. CF wanted us to accept its reality, when in truth, with a chronic disease, you do accept the reality, but its just like death, it is envitable, and then you choose life. When you choose to do something it means so much more and it works so much more for you I am done with CF making me apologize for what I want. I am done apologize for CF's bad behavior, if CF can go do what it wants to do, while I go do what I want to do! CF needs to learn how to share, actualy CF needs to learn to stop interferring in my life and staying out of my room. That's right CF, I'm done babysitting you, I have blogs, speeches, books to write! I am the creative one in the family, I am going to demand the attention I need for my ceative artist!
I love how as an only child, I am describing this as a sibling relationship...