Barely Focusing

Forgive me if this is disjointed or completely out of left field at times. I need to write something and I need to get out of my head. My topic was going to be, Don't be friends with a CF Patient. That sounded way too harsh and I need friends so why advertise not to be my friend. I'm so inwardly focused right now and I hate it. I can barely see until tomorrow afternoon so I don't want to commit myself to anything. Figuring out what to eat and always having to make things is consuming my life. I'm losing weight, you would presume, sleeping all the time and not leaving the house much was not conducive with weight lost. I don't want to get sick so I don't want to be around a group of new people. I don't want to call anyone because what have I got to talk about? I don't have much work to do, I'm listening to my body and figuring out ways to help myself. What jolly conversation. If people were calling me, I would love to hear about their lives, but alas it is probably my turn to call them and that isn't going to happen right now. I just can't get my mind off the things that are happening to me right now. And I really don't want to share right now, they are not very nice details. Alright that's all I can focus on....