Processing
I'm still acting like a sourpuss, but I'm adapting to my new time consuming tasks. I pray for my parents to keep their sanity through this disagreeable stage. I really hate myself for being so anti-social and apathetic. I don't like how I'm treating my parents, but this is my home, where I get to me and right that person is unhappy and mean. I think I'm 40% through processing this new stage of life. I was so much better at it when I was younger. I know at some point I will live like nothing is wrong, having adapted to my new routine, knowing its to better my health so I can get out there and have a life.
The Colistin has been alright. No sure signs its helping, well it has to be helping its antibiotics of course they are doing something. The whole mixing process is an ordeal and the most inaccurate delivery system of a medication. On the bright side of things, I haven't been running nearly as high a temperature at night. I don't know if that was because of CF or maybe food allergies. I have these mucus runs as I like to call them now like clock work. Its very strange and my sinuses play along as well. This usually turns into a fight to not vomit which I've been pretty successful at avoiding as of late.
Now to process loving food again, wanting to eat and making gluten-free the way to be. I'm usually quick to stop the complaining and think of solutions, but this phase dealing with my disease has left me in a hazy muck of anger and dissatisfaction. I finally got a hold of myself and baked up some solutions while my parents were out. I made brownies from a gluten free mix and they turned out just like real brownies! One of the most upsetting things I find, is substitution foods, they look like what you would want to eat, but taste and feel nothing like it. This mix was a winner!! Then I made raspberry, walnut muffins. I even lined the tin with parchment and did a trick I randomly saw on Martha Stewart, by twisting the parchment with a cup. The muffins were beautiful. The only problem was through this whole baking process not once did I crave what I was making. I didn't even want to lick the brownie bowl. I was actually quite tired. I cleaned up some, but left the sink still full of dishes and went to bed. But breakfast the next morning was mighty fine!
On Friday, I entertained myself by going to stores that I find highly entertaining. Sur la Table, not as great as the Container Store, but it's closer to my house. I bought a strainer so I could wash my lentils and rice without them all falling out, and some air tight containers. Then Barnes and Noble, I could spend hours in there and it is one of my ideal date spots ;). I flipped through a lot of gluten-free cooking books. I wanted one that would give me fairly quick and easy recipes and things I would eat. I found a beautiful one! The author even explains she made this cookbook beautiful because when she was diagnosed with Celiac's the books were crude, long,ugly paper and a bunch of dishes no one really would eat. This book has 90+ recipes from breakfast, snacks, main dishes to simple desserts. Glossy white pages and a full color picture of the final product on the right. This is why I can't Internet shop. Appearance is everything. I went home and read it cover to cover.
After a lovely dinner, that I enjoyed very much prepared by my mother I was off to be social. A great new friend is being very supportive and helpful in this discovery of new foods. She had this recipe for sesame seed nuggets that she thought would be a great little snack. I went to her place and we made them...Just pistachios, currants, sesame seed butter, honey and a little salt. You mix all together scoop up the dough into balls, roll in sesame seeds and freeze. A great good fat snack!
Finally, today, the pantry was organized for my gluten-free section and all the other stuff my parents are going to eat up, then its 100% gluten free household. Then my dad and I picked out two recipes for dinner and went shopping. We made chili cheese cornbread and a chicken, eggplant dish from my new book. Dinner was excellent, it all turned out and I wanted to eat it. I didn't get to eat that much because the mucus flow started. I got through it okay. Now for some more brownies!
The Colistin has been alright. No sure signs its helping, well it has to be helping its antibiotics of course they are doing something. The whole mixing process is an ordeal and the most inaccurate delivery system of a medication. On the bright side of things, I haven't been running nearly as high a temperature at night. I don't know if that was because of CF or maybe food allergies. I have these mucus runs as I like to call them now like clock work. Its very strange and my sinuses play along as well. This usually turns into a fight to not vomit which I've been pretty successful at avoiding as of late.
Now to process loving food again, wanting to eat and making gluten-free the way to be. I'm usually quick to stop the complaining and think of solutions, but this phase dealing with my disease has left me in a hazy muck of anger and dissatisfaction. I finally got a hold of myself and baked up some solutions while my parents were out. I made brownies from a gluten free mix and they turned out just like real brownies! One of the most upsetting things I find, is substitution foods, they look like what you would want to eat, but taste and feel nothing like it. This mix was a winner!! Then I made raspberry, walnut muffins. I even lined the tin with parchment and did a trick I randomly saw on Martha Stewart, by twisting the parchment with a cup. The muffins were beautiful. The only problem was through this whole baking process not once did I crave what I was making. I didn't even want to lick the brownie bowl. I was actually quite tired. I cleaned up some, but left the sink still full of dishes and went to bed. But breakfast the next morning was mighty fine!
On Friday, I entertained myself by going to stores that I find highly entertaining. Sur la Table, not as great as the Container Store, but it's closer to my house. I bought a strainer so I could wash my lentils and rice without them all falling out, and some air tight containers. Then Barnes and Noble, I could spend hours in there and it is one of my ideal date spots ;). I flipped through a lot of gluten-free cooking books. I wanted one that would give me fairly quick and easy recipes and things I would eat. I found a beautiful one! The author even explains she made this cookbook beautiful because when she was diagnosed with Celiac's the books were crude, long,ugly paper and a bunch of dishes no one really would eat. This book has 90+ recipes from breakfast, snacks, main dishes to simple desserts. Glossy white pages and a full color picture of the final product on the right. This is why I can't Internet shop. Appearance is everything. I went home and read it cover to cover.
After a lovely dinner, that I enjoyed very much prepared by my mother I was off to be social. A great new friend is being very supportive and helpful in this discovery of new foods. She had this recipe for sesame seed nuggets that she thought would be a great little snack. I went to her place and we made them...Just pistachios, currants, sesame seed butter, honey and a little salt. You mix all together scoop up the dough into balls, roll in sesame seeds and freeze. A great good fat snack!
Finally, today, the pantry was organized for my gluten-free section and all the other stuff my parents are going to eat up, then its 100% gluten free household. Then my dad and I picked out two recipes for dinner and went shopping. We made chili cheese cornbread and a chicken, eggplant dish from my new book. Dinner was excellent, it all turned out and I wanted to eat it. I didn't get to eat that much because the mucus flow started. I got through it okay. Now for some more brownies!